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  Rett shifted in her seat, wishing this woman would go find someone else to interrogate. “I’m looking for Love Mercy Johnson. I have some business with her.” That was all she was going to say.

  “That right?” Magnolia said. “Well, I happen to know Love Johnson pretty good. I’ll give her a ring and let her know you’re here waitin’ on her. What did you say your name was?”

  “Didn’t.”

  That shut Rocky’s wife right up and, Rett was guessing, put her on Magnolia’s bad girl list for all eternity. Oh, well, she doubted she’d be in this town for very long. Probably her grandma would let her stay a night or two, then wish her good luck and a nice life. Fine, she’d head down to L.A. The music scene there was supposed to be pretty good.

  Magnolia picked up the menu and said with a sharp voice, “You sure you don’t want the lunch special? Or a cannoli to go with your coffee?”

  “I’m sure.”

  Magnolia’s face softened. “No charge, sugar.”

  Rett frowned. She didn’t take charity. “I have money. I’m just not hungry.”

  Magnolia shrugged. “Suit yourself.” A few minutes later, she brought Rett a cup of coffee and a little collie dog-shaped pitcher of cream.

  Rett stared out the café window and inhaled deeply, trying to ignore the combination of emptiness and anxiety in her stomach. She’d skipped breakfast this morning, her stomach upset by the stress of meeting her grandma. Maybe she should have taken Magnolia’s offer of free food. But she was obviously offering Rett the food out of pity, and Rett hated pity. She didn’t want to be beholden to anyone.

  Beholden. She liked the way the word sounded. It rolled off your tongue like Karo syrup and butter. And it rhymed with golden, which was a good songwriting word. She dug through her backpack and found her songwriting notebook, one of those steno kind with the metal spirals across the top.

  She wrote down the words beholden/golden. A tune was already starting to tickle her brain. That was what it was like, she once told a newspaper reporter in a little town in Arkansas when she and her sisters were being interviewed by the local newspaper. They were singing at a country fair near Mt. Ida, not on the big permanent stage, but the temporary one near the pig races. Sometimes there’d only be five or six people in the audience, usually eating lunch. Her sister Patsy called it singing to the corn dogs. The Son Sisters sing your favorite bluegrass and gospel hits. Free mustard and relish all around.

  It killed something inside Rett when they took the stage just to watch people finish their deep-fried Snickers, then stand up and walk away. After their show, they sold—or tried to sell—the only CD they’d recorded. Ten bucks a piece or three for twenty-five dollars. Like anyone would ever want three. One of Mom’s boyfriends paid to have it made when he was so gaga in love with her. That was Mom’s biggest talent for sure, getting men to fall in love with her and do whatever she wanted. For a while, anyway.

  “It’s sort of like an itch,” she’d answered the reporter’s question about how she wrote a song. She’d been fifteen at the time and had already written twenty-seven and a half songs, though none of them were recorded on their CD. Mom had only let them cover other people’s songs on the CD, so it would, in Mom’s words, “Have an actual chance of selling.” Her words had cut Rett’s heart like a knife.

  “I just have to kind of scratch at it,” Rett told the reporter. “And the words start coming. Sometimes with the music, sometimes not. Sometimes the music comes first, sometimes last. Then I put them together, like a puzzle.”

  She still remembered the gagging sound that Patsy made deep in her throat. Rett knew what it meant, that she’d said something totally dumb.

  The reporter, who was already all over Patsy like about a zillion guys before him, exchanged a look with her pretty older sister, while he feebly attempted to keep a straight face. Rett could see the laugher in his eyes, how all he was interested in was looking cool to her sister with his phony sophistication, so Rett clammed right up. She let Patsy take over the interview, even though her sister couldn’t write a song to save her life. Though Patsy was only a year older than Rett, she’d figured out early how to say the right thing to both media types and adults, give them the sound bites they wanted to hear. She was definitely the prettiest of the Johnson girls, so photographers always wanted to put her in the forefront of the photo. That part Rett didn’t mind. She tried to hide behind her banjo or guitar whenever she could. And their younger sister, Faith, was mostly in a world of her own, dreaming about dogs and horses and exotic birds. Faith was the type who always went along to get along. She hated any kind of conflict.

  Rett inhaled the sweet, toasty scents of the café. The chalkboard next to the cash register read in fancy letters, Italian Day! Man, was she hungry. She glanced over at the table next to her. That plate of lasagna looked killer.

  She wished her grandma Johnson would hurry up. She contemplated going outside to wait but quickly squelched that. It was way too cold. She wished she had packed something warmer than this sweatshirt, but she thought California was all sunshine, all the time. That’s sure how they made it look on television.

  The pastor’s wife was talking to a dark-haired woman who sat at the long counter. The woman kept giving Rett suspicious glances that she didn’t try to hide, even after Rett gave her the finger, something she kinda regretted. Still, the lady ought to mind her own business and quit staring at her like she was going to steal the sugar or something.

  The woman was obviously younger than Magnolia, who looked like she was in her fifties. This other woman looked like she was thirty-something. She wore the cool kind of jeans, cut low and tight. Like Magnolia, she also looked like someone you wouldn’t want to mess with, but in a way that Rett couldn’t put her finger on. Magnolia was like a really tough grandma. This lady she was whispering to sort of reminded Rett of the female studio musicians she’d met a few times. Those women had bones made of steel. They were used to working with men and seemed like they’d just as soon punch you as speak to you. Still, they’d always been real nice to Rett and her sisters. Rett admired them, wished she could be like that: hard but nice. She always felt one sharp word away from crybaby tears when something went totally wrong in her life.

  Like all the weird things about her personality, she blamed that on her mom, Karla Rae Murphy Johnson Ryan Wilson, the queen of excess emo. Mama Diva was what Rett and her sisters called their mom behind her back. Maybe this break from her mom and coming out West to see where her dad was raised might bring out his side in her. Not that she knew what that might be. She barely remembered her father, because her mom hardly ever spoke about him. Tommy Cyrus Johnson was a low, laughing voice and a spicy, elusive scent that Rett had been searching for all her life. A couple of times she’d even tried writing a song about him, but she always got stuck after the first few lines.

  Rett was digging through her backpack for her last stick of sour orange gum when Magnolia walked up to her table and plopped a big plate of lasagna in front of her.

  “Eat,” she said. “No argument. Your grandmama’s paid for it already.”

  “Yes, ma’am,” Rett said automatically, grateful for the food and even more grateful that someone made a decision for her.

  She was halfway finished with the pasta when the door to the café opened, and a tall, kind of bony woman with reddish hair walked in. When Rett heard a couple of men call out her name—Love—she knew it was her grandma. The woman glanced over at Rett, her pale eyes lingering for a split second. Before Rett could react, her grandma turned to speak to the woman that Rett had flipped off.

  Great, she thought. They’re probably best friends or something. Her grandma would hate her before they even met. Rett immediately started thinking about where she could go from here. Her money wouldn’t get her far. She hated thinking about it, but she might have to pawn the banjo. Though the thought of pawning the gorgeous instrument kinda killed her, it also made her smile. Dale would bust a vein. Would serve him r
ight. Maybe she’d send him a postcard with a little cartoon showing the banjo in a jail cell. Just like all those cute little cartoons he drew on Hampton Inn stationery and sent her when he was on the road. All the time he was probably sending Patsy the same cartoons along with love notes reliving what they’d done.

  Just thinking about Dale and Patsy made her eyes burn. She bit the inside of her cheek, making herself concentrate on the physical pain, so she wouldn’t think about the ache in her chest. She’d sung he-done-me-wrong songs since she was barely five years old, but this was the first time she understood what those women were talking about.

  She pushed the lasagna away, her appetite gone. Forget about Dale, she lectured herself. You’ve got to figure a way to make some money and get out of here. She was certain she’d used up whatever good girl, spiritual savings she’d acquired with the Mister upstairs, so she doubted whether someone like Brother Dwaine would show up and drive her to L.A. Maybe she could get a job bartending, though she didn’t have any idea how to make any kind of drink except a sloe gin fizz. She tried to remember the ratio between sloe gin and fizzy water. Was lemon juice involved somehow? Maybe she could Google it. She’d need to find a fake ID too.

  “Hello, Loretta.”

  Rett looked up, surprised to see her grandma standing next to her. She was struck dumb for a moment. She looked right into her eyes, then back down at the table. “I go by Rett now.”

  She looked back up to see her grandma’s reaction. For some reason, she knew this moment would be one she’d remember her whole life. She tasted the sweet-tangy marinara sauce in the back of her throat. The contents of her stomach crashed and broke like an ocean wave. It suddenly struck her that this was her father’s mother. She’d given birth and raised the man that was Rett’s dad. What would this woman think of her? What if her grandma didn’t want to have anything to do with her?

  “Rett Johnson.” Her grandma cocked her head and rolled the name off her tongue as if she were tasting it. Her voice was pitched low, like a blues singer. “I like that.” A soft Kentucky twang still echoed in the shadows of her vowels. Her thin, pale lips turned up into a smile. “Well, Rett, welcome home.”

  FIVE

  Mel

  Mel had finished her riding lesson and was currying the sweat and dirt off Redeye’s back when Maisie came up behind her.

  “Benni says you were a cop,” Maisie remarked, leaning against the metal hitching rail where the horse was tied.

  Mel kept grooming and didn’t answer.

  “In Las Vegas,” Maisie persisted.

  According to Benni, Maisie’s father had called and said he’d be late, so she had hung around during Mel’s lesson supposedly helping Gabe build a new chicken coop. Throughout her lesson, Mel had heard the young woman’s clear voice talking a mile a minute to Gabe.

  “Were being the operative word,” Mel said, glancing over at the curious young woman. Strands of Maisie’s hair had worked their way loose from her braid, causing tiny curls to form around her heart-shaped face. She appeared to be the same age as Love’s granddaughter, but the two girls seemed as far apart in looks and attitude as Mel was from the actress Reese Witherspoon.

  “My daddy’s a cop,” Maisie replied. “He says, ‘Once a cop, always a cop.’ ”

  Benni walked around the corner in time to hear Maisie’s statement. “Amen to that. Though I have to admit, since Gabe retired, he’s becoming a little less suspicious of every person who looks crosswise at him.”

  Mel didn’t answer, just kept currying the horse’s broad back.

  “Do you still carry a gun?” Maisie asked Mel.

  Mel glanced over at Benni and arched one eyebrow. For a cop’s kid, this one was awfully snoopy.

  “Hey, Maisie,” Benni said. “Would you go inside and help Dove pack up the pumpkin bread for Mel and the others? You know my gramma. She’ll probably be trying to do it herself, and she’s not supposed to use that arm.”

  “In other words, quit asking questions and get lost.” Maisie gave Mel a wide grin and wiped her hands down her tight Wranglers. “Sorry if I’m a pain. Daddy says I should have come equipped with a snap on my mouth.” She gave a high giggle.

  Maisie had an infectiously cheerful way about her, an innocence that Mel envied. She exuded the easy confidence that a person seemed to acquire only if they’d been cherished early in their life. Mel wanted to dislike the girl for it, but instead, she found herself smiling back.

  “No harm, no foul,” Mel said, tossing the currycomb into the metal bucket. She pulled a hoof pick from her back pocket.

  “Thanks! See you later.” Maisie ran toward the back door of the ranch house, giving a little skip every third step or so.

  “She’s a good kid,” Benni said. “She reminds me of myself at that age.”

  “Well, lucky you.” Mel felt a twinge inside. She hadn’t meant the words to sound quite so sarcastic.

  Benni cocked her head, not appearing to be insulted. “Yes, I was. But I can’t take any credit for it. I didn’t pick my family, I was born into it. Lucky sperm club, as Gabe would say.” She smiled. “I always correct him. Lucky sperm and egg club. I didn’t deserve my good fortune any more than someone deserves a bad family. I just thank God for it.”

  Mel gently tugged at Redeye’s back fetlock until he lifted his leg. She pulled his foot between her knees and dug at the mud and debris caught in the frog of his hoof. It always made her uncomfortable when someone talked about God in such a familiar way, like he was a person they just called on their cell phone, one of their five favorite people, as one phone company advertised. She didn’t know how to respond. The whole concept of a being who created this screwed-up world seemed beyond rational belief, though she’d have to admit, if pressed, that she didn’t have any better explanation for how or why humans existed or what made them do things, good and bad.

  “Are you going to the lighted boat parade on Saturday?” Benni asked.

  “Yep. Bert and Ernie and four of their buddies are attempting some kind of kayak formation.” She let Redeye’s leg down carefully and moved to the next one.

  “I’ve seen single kayaks in the parade,” Benni said. “They always cover themselves with Christmas lights. But I don’t think there’s ever been a whole fleet of them. Is that what you’d call it, a fleet of kayaks? A bevy? A cartel?”

  Mel didn’t look up from Red’s hoof. “In this case, I’d probably call it a foolishness of kayaks.”

  Benni’s clear laugh rang out. “Mel, you are a hoot. Are you going to paddle with them?”

  “With how cold it is out there on the water? No way. I’m the official photographer and designated cheerleader.”

  “Smart lady.” Benni checked her watch. “I’d better go inside and make sure Dove isn’t doing something she’s not supposed to be doing. Same time next week?”

  Mel nodded. “I’ll practice with opening and closing gates before then. I’m going over to August and Polly’s after this.”

  “You’re doing great, but riding a horse is like riding a bicycle. You need to do it enough that it becomes second nature. That’s the best way to avoid a wreck.”

  Ten minutes later, Mel had finished with the horse’s last hoof and was combing out his tangled mane when a man came strolling around the corner of the barn. She swore softly to herself. Grooming Redeye was her favorite part of her lessons with Benni, and she really preferred doing it alone. There was a certain rhythm to the brushing, combing, picking his hooves, checking his body for sore spots. Making another creature feel comfortable and calm seemed a worthwhile task and settled something inside her in an uncomplicated, peaceful way.

  So it annoyed her when the man, whistling an off-key tune, walked right up to her. He was average height, five eleven or so, middle to late forties, short brownish silver hair parted on the side, dark eyes. He had a self-assured, slightly aggressive walk that instantly gave him away. Cop or career military. Maisie’s dad, she guessed.

  “Hey, how’s it
going?” he asked. He wore a faded plaid flannel shirt, jeans and round-toed brown boots. His black ball cap read Tulane University.

  “Fine.”

  “Is Maisie back here?”

  “Nope.” She continued to run the steel comb through Redeye’s mane. His accent had a drawl to it. Texas, she guessed.

  “Know where she went?” He squinted his coffee brown eyes against the warm afternoon sun and rested his hands on his hips. Though she hated that she noticed, he was attractive, good-looking in that Eddie Bauer-L.L. Bean male-model way. All he needed was a rake in his hand, a yellow Lab at his feet and a bar code across his feet.

  “Last I heard she was headed toward the house.”

  “No one’s in the house.”

  Mel shrugged. “That’s all I know.”

  She waited for him to go away, but he didn’t. She could feel the tension start in the pit of her stomach, reminding her of the feeling when she was a patrol officer, that millisecond she knew that the person she’d pulled over was going to be a pain in the ass.

  “You must be Mel,” he said, his voice friendly, deliberately ignoring her not-interested signals.

  “Yep.” She started vigorously working at a knotted place in Redeye’s mane. When she tugged too hard, the horse tossed his head in annoyance. “Sorry, boy,” she murmured.

  “You’re taking lessons from Benni too,” the man said. “Maisie talks about you all the time. Says you’re the bomb. That’s good, I think. But you’re young. I guess you’d know that. Actually, Maisie just talks all the time, so don’t take it personal. She used to be shy as a kid, then something happened when she hit puberty, and it’s been magpie city ever since. Sometimes I put on my Bose headphones and tell her I’m listening to music when all I’m doing is listening to the quiet. I’m her dad, by the way.” While he talked, he’d moved over to the other side of the horse.

  Mel peered at him over Redeye’s back, unsmiling. “Like daughter, like father.”